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Find Me Some Awesome Artists!
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Here's the deal! I'm bored and the internet is failing me most of the time now. All you awesome people that are on here must know of more awesome artists that i can DevWatch 
. I'd love you all forever (as i already do), if you could refer me to some of them. I don't guarantee that i will watch all of them but i will look at every one of them and see if their art is my sort of thing (i'm not too picky but i know what i like) and decide if i want to or not.
Thanks much in advance.
. I'd love you all forever (as i already do), if you could refer me to some of them. I don't guarantee that i will watch all of them but i will look at every one of them and see if their art is my sort of thing (i'm not too picky but i know what i like) and decide if i want to or not.Thanks much in advance.
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Happy 2011, everyone. Sorry i haven't updated or submitted in a very long time. My muse has been dead lately. Dunno when that is going to change.
Main reason for this though, is a bit of a rant. I don't really expect or need responses telling me what i already know i need to do but i thank greatly anyone who reads it anyways.
I'm sick to death of my boyfriend. All we do is fight and argue anymore and he still expects me to want to marry him. Yes, we've been dating for a bit over two years. Yes, at one time i talked about marrying him and having kids and a home together. Yes, i still care about him. Problem is, i am so bloody unhappy anymore.
He knew from the start that i made a vow to myself that i would remain a virgin until i was married yet still he is obsessed with it and never gives me a days peace about it even though he doesn't expect me to give in. "Can't blame me for trying," are his words on the subject. Sure he doesn't know my actual and complete reason behind the vow but he should still respect my wishes and not dwell on it constantly. I was molested as a child and it scarred me badly, to the point where i really don't like to talk about it in person to people. Especially people i know... Is that bad?
Also, he is starting to harp about things. I work over 40 hours a week and go over two his house literally every other day. The few days i have to myself, i either go to my little sister's or just relax. I haven't cleaned out my truck in a while. I know it is kinda bad and i really need to take the time and clean it up a bit but i'm tired and it has been really cold out and he has NO right whatsoever to harp to me about it. So what if his truck is perfectly clean? His bedroom has a pathway to the bed and that's nearly it. Then he also harps about my dog, a 14 week old puppy, when it goes on the floor a bit (something it only does at HIS house because HIS dogs go inside so he thinks he can too) or just wants to play with the other dogs. I'm sorry he caught a tablecloth in his play and caused something to fall and break but don't harp me about it when we were upstairs and no one else (he still lives with his mom and 5 siblings) was keeping an eye on things. It's not my fault and you can't train a puppy in a day. He hasn't broken anything at my house and hasn't gone to the bathroom inside in weeks.
I also wish he would just STOP telling me that i'm basically not allowed to be tired after working 6 days a week and being kept up late (by him) and woke up early on the one day a week i do get to rest (by him). I can't help it i am tired. I have degenerative joint disease. My back hurts constantly and i sleep like crap because of it normally. I'm going to be tired probably for the rest of my life!
Also, my memory sucks. It always has and probably always will. And he tries to tell ME that i have to start working on my memory to get it better so i can remind HIM of things. Grow up and remind yourself. I'm not the other half of your brain. Put us together and, sometimes, i think with my brain between us, there'd still only be one brain.
I'm degrading myself just dating the guy, i think. Having to dumb myself down just so he understands me. I'm a very intelligent person with an extensive vocabulary from the amount of reading i have done and he doesn't understand so many of the words i like to use.
He needs to stop telling me too that when we get married i will wind up having to get a car because we won't be able to afford two trucks. I just got my truck and he can go jump off a cliff if he thinks i'm going to get rid of it. I'd work three jobs first. I've wanted a truck for YEARS and he's not going to stop me from having one.
I'm breaking up with him within the next two weeks so soon i won't be having the problems (though he is going to blow a gasket, i'm sure, after months/years of saying that he'd go crazy if he lost me). I am so tired of the arguing and harping and pressuring and i'm tired of being unhappy. I deserve to be happy and i'm going to be soon, i hope.
Thanks to any who read this. I really needed a vent badly. I've got such a headache right now it's not even funny.
Main reason for this though, is a bit of a rant. I don't really expect or need responses telling me what i already know i need to do but i thank greatly anyone who reads it anyways.
I'm sick to death of my boyfriend. All we do is fight and argue anymore and he still expects me to want to marry him. Yes, we've been dating for a bit over two years. Yes, at one time i talked about marrying him and having kids and a home together. Yes, i still care about him. Problem is, i am so bloody unhappy anymore.
He knew from the start that i made a vow to myself that i would remain a virgin until i was married yet still he is obsessed with it and never gives me a days peace about it even though he doesn't expect me to give in. "Can't blame me for trying," are his words on the subject. Sure he doesn't know my actual and complete reason behind the vow but he should still respect my wishes and not dwell on it constantly. I was molested as a child and it scarred me badly, to the point where i really don't like to talk about it in person to people. Especially people i know... Is that bad?
Also, he is starting to harp about things. I work over 40 hours a week and go over two his house literally every other day. The few days i have to myself, i either go to my little sister's or just relax. I haven't cleaned out my truck in a while. I know it is kinda bad and i really need to take the time and clean it up a bit but i'm tired and it has been really cold out and he has NO right whatsoever to harp to me about it. So what if his truck is perfectly clean? His bedroom has a pathway to the bed and that's nearly it. Then he also harps about my dog, a 14 week old puppy, when it goes on the floor a bit (something it only does at HIS house because HIS dogs go inside so he thinks he can too) or just wants to play with the other dogs. I'm sorry he caught a tablecloth in his play and caused something to fall and break but don't harp me about it when we were upstairs and no one else (he still lives with his mom and 5 siblings) was keeping an eye on things. It's not my fault and you can't train a puppy in a day. He hasn't broken anything at my house and hasn't gone to the bathroom inside in weeks.
I also wish he would just STOP telling me that i'm basically not allowed to be tired after working 6 days a week and being kept up late (by him) and woke up early on the one day a week i do get to rest (by him). I can't help it i am tired. I have degenerative joint disease. My back hurts constantly and i sleep like crap because of it normally. I'm going to be tired probably for the rest of my life!
Also, my memory sucks. It always has and probably always will. And he tries to tell ME that i have to start working on my memory to get it better so i can remind HIM of things. Grow up and remind yourself. I'm not the other half of your brain. Put us together and, sometimes, i think with my brain between us, there'd still only be one brain.
I'm degrading myself just dating the guy, i think. Having to dumb myself down just so he understands me. I'm a very intelligent person with an extensive vocabulary from the amount of reading i have done and he doesn't understand so many of the words i like to use.
He needs to stop telling me too that when we get married i will wind up having to get a car because we won't be able to afford two trucks. I just got my truck and he can go jump off a cliff if he thinks i'm going to get rid of it. I'd work three jobs first. I've wanted a truck for YEARS and he's not going to stop me from having one.
I'm breaking up with him within the next two weeks so soon i won't be having the problems (though he is going to blow a gasket, i'm sure, after months/years of saying that he'd go crazy if he lost me). I am so tired of the arguing and harping and pressuring and i'm tired of being unhappy. I deserve to be happy and i'm going to be soon, i hope.
Thanks to any who read this. I really needed a vent badly. I've got such a headache right now it's not even funny.
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Confessions
7 min read
First off, sorry i haven't updated anything in forever. I haven't really had the ambition and my camera battery charger has been missing since august so my camera battery was dead which meant no camera or pictures. Hopefully (meaning i kinda doubt it) i will soon have the ambition to get more stuff on here. Thanks to all those who still watch me though, it is always appreciated.
Now, on to this quiz thing that i stole from someone i watch:
_______________________
1. Do you sleep in your bra?
Depends on how I feel. Not usually though.
2. Do you sleep with socks on?
Never! I hate the feel of anything on my feet.
3. Would you rather sleep alone or with someone else?
Right now alone because i am more used to it. When i get married, i will get used to that and the answer will change.
4. Do you enjoy drama?
Not really.
5. Are you a girly-girl?
Hell no.
6. Who was the last person you hugged?
My boyfriend when i left his house tonight.
7. Small or large purse?
Fairly large to be honest. But then i carry books in it and my DS and lots of random other crap.
8. Are you short?
No.
9. Do you like somebody?
Yes. My boyfriend.
10.Does your Facebook password have to do with a boy?
No.
11. Do you care if your socks are dirty?
I hate wearing dirty socks.
12. Do you think you're conceited?
No.
13. Do you dress up on Halloween?
Of course!
14. Are you double jointed?
No. Wish i was sometimes.
15. Where is the weirdest place you have slept?
I don't think i have really slept anywhere weird. Unless you count sleepwalking.
16. Has anyone touched/smacked your butt in the past 24 hours?
Yes. My boyfriend seems to have a fixation with my rear for some reason...
17. Is there any type of rumor going around about you?
Not that I know of.
18. Do you call anybody by their last name?
A guy i know from back when i was in high school. I can call him Matt and sometimes do but it is his last name more often than not.
19. How many guys will read this just because it says "Girl Confessions"?
Who knows? I sure don't.
[x] I do wear make up. (Only on special occasions though.)
[ ] I have cried in a movie theater. (Oh yeah. :'c )
[x] I can put mascara on without opening my mouth.
[/] I get jealous. (depends on the situation)
[ ] I think Johnny Depp is sexy.
[x] I love to laugh. (That's like, what my life consists of. lol)
[x] I like death/grind/black metal. (I have to be in the mood for it.)
[ ] I like rap. (Never.)
[ ] I like techno. (Not really)
[x] I like country. (Couldn't live without country. <3)
[X] I carry a purse. (more like a small backpack)
[x] I''d be lost without my computer.
[ ] I own a Spice Girls CD.
[ ] I own a Britney Spears CD.
[/] I own a boy band CD. (If Nickleback counts as a boyband.)
[ ] I get bored watching football. (Men, I don't know how you do it.
)
[X] I've never been called a spoiled brat.
[ ] Guys are confusing.
[ ] I've been called a bad influence.
[ ] I have/had a piercing other than my ears.
Come on ladies, be truthful!
1. What color is your bra that you're wearing?
Not wearing one at the moment. I am in my pajamas.
2. Do you prefer light or dark haired guys?
Doesn't matter. Natural is preferred but other than that, i really don't care.
3. Are you currently frustrated with a boy?
Not that i can think of...
4. What's one thing a guy can do to make you like them?
Be themselves and be honest with me and be willing to have some fun. It doesn't mean i would date them or anything but liking a person and wanting to date them are two totally different things.
5. Do you have a best friend?
One for sure.
6. Have you ever had your heart broken?
No, not in a relationship sense. My mother came close at one time but i got past it and still love her.
7. Have you ever thought of having plastic surgery?
Nope.
8. Do you like your life?
There's been times when i didn't and times when i do. Lately, life has been pretty good to me and i am thankful to be alive and able to enjoy it, despite what health problems i have.
10. Has one of your friends ever stolen a boyfriend from you?
Nope. Never.
11. Have you ever jumped in the pool with your clothes on?
With my clothes on, with nothing on, with a swim suit on, with just my underwear on (bra and underwear like a bikini), you name it, i have probably been in a pool in that manner.
12. Do you have more friends that are girls or boys?
Girls.
13. How long have you had a facebook?
A couple months, i think?
14. Have you ever slapped a boy in the face?
Yeah. Do it to my current BF a bit every now and then. Not hard or anything but sometimes he deserves it.
15. What are your biggest fears?
My biggest fear is losing control of myself. I have had a couple of emotional breakdowns and it is the worst feeling in the world and the only thing that i really and truly fear.
16. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
Yes.
17. Have you ever not been able to get someone off of your mind?
Definitely.
18. Do you believe in the saying "once a cheater, always a cheater?"
Depends on the person. Some people learn, others don't.
19. Have you ever had a good feeling about something?
Probably when i started dating my current boyfriend. From the first day i met him, i knew i would end up dating him (and i was right) and that i would like him. 13 months later (as of yesterday) and we are still going strong.
20. Do you ever wish you were famous?
No. I like my life how it is.
21. Are you currently missing someone?
Yes. My boyfriend even though i just left his house a couple of hours ago.
THIS GUY OR THAT GUY? PICK ONE
Cowboy or Gangster?
COWBOY FOR SURE!
Love a REAL man.
Preppy or Punk?
Punk.
Face or Body?
Can't choose one! No way!
Good cook or take you out a lot?
Good cook. It's nice to be pampered but i'd get tired of going out very quickly.
Sweet or sexy?
Sweet a bit more but both would be nice.
Armani or Abercrombie?
Comfortable casual so Abercrombie. Armani is just too fancy.
Contacts or glasses?
For me, contacts all the way. I hate glasses. For anyone else, it depends on how they look with or without. I'm not picky.
Now, on to this quiz thing that i stole from someone i watch:
_______________________
1. Do you sleep in your bra?
Depends on how I feel. Not usually though.
2. Do you sleep with socks on?
Never! I hate the feel of anything on my feet.
3. Would you rather sleep alone or with someone else?
Right now alone because i am more used to it. When i get married, i will get used to that and the answer will change.
4. Do you enjoy drama?
Not really.
5. Are you a girly-girl?
Hell no.
6. Who was the last person you hugged?
My boyfriend when i left his house tonight.
7. Small or large purse?
Fairly large to be honest. But then i carry books in it and my DS and lots of random other crap.
8. Are you short?
No.
9. Do you like somebody?
Yes. My boyfriend.
10.Does your Facebook password have to do with a boy?
No.
11. Do you care if your socks are dirty?
I hate wearing dirty socks.
12. Do you think you're conceited?
No.
13. Do you dress up on Halloween?
Of course!
14. Are you double jointed?
No. Wish i was sometimes.
15. Where is the weirdest place you have slept?
I don't think i have really slept anywhere weird. Unless you count sleepwalking.
16. Has anyone touched/smacked your butt in the past 24 hours?
Yes. My boyfriend seems to have a fixation with my rear for some reason...
17. Is there any type of rumor going around about you?
Not that I know of.
18. Do you call anybody by their last name?
A guy i know from back when i was in high school. I can call him Matt and sometimes do but it is his last name more often than not.
19. How many guys will read this just because it says "Girl Confessions"?
Who knows? I sure don't.
[x] I do wear make up. (Only on special occasions though.)
[ ] I have cried in a movie theater. (Oh yeah. :'c )
[x] I can put mascara on without opening my mouth.
[/] I get jealous. (depends on the situation)
[ ] I think Johnny Depp is sexy.
[x] I love to laugh. (That's like, what my life consists of. lol)
[x] I like death/grind/black metal. (I have to be in the mood for it.)
[ ] I like rap. (Never.)
[ ] I like techno. (Not really)
[x] I like country. (Couldn't live without country. <3)
[X] I carry a purse. (more like a small backpack)
[x] I''d be lost without my computer.
[ ] I own a Spice Girls CD.
[ ] I own a Britney Spears CD.
[/] I own a boy band CD. (If Nickleback counts as a boyband.)
[ ] I get bored watching football. (Men, I don't know how you do it.
)[X] I've never been called a spoiled brat.
[ ] Guys are confusing.
[ ] I've been called a bad influence.
[ ] I have/had a piercing other than my ears.
Come on ladies, be truthful!
1. What color is your bra that you're wearing?
Not wearing one at the moment. I am in my pajamas.
2. Do you prefer light or dark haired guys?
Doesn't matter. Natural is preferred but other than that, i really don't care.
3. Are you currently frustrated with a boy?
Not that i can think of...
4. What's one thing a guy can do to make you like them?
Be themselves and be honest with me and be willing to have some fun. It doesn't mean i would date them or anything but liking a person and wanting to date them are two totally different things.
5. Do you have a best friend?
One for sure.
6. Have you ever had your heart broken?
No, not in a relationship sense. My mother came close at one time but i got past it and still love her.
7. Have you ever thought of having plastic surgery?
Nope.
8. Do you like your life?
There's been times when i didn't and times when i do. Lately, life has been pretty good to me and i am thankful to be alive and able to enjoy it, despite what health problems i have.
10. Has one of your friends ever stolen a boyfriend from you?
Nope. Never.
11. Have you ever jumped in the pool with your clothes on?
With my clothes on, with nothing on, with a swim suit on, with just my underwear on (bra and underwear like a bikini), you name it, i have probably been in a pool in that manner.
12. Do you have more friends that are girls or boys?
Girls.
13. How long have you had a facebook?
A couple months, i think?
14. Have you ever slapped a boy in the face?
Yeah.
Do it to my current BF a bit every now and then. Not hard or anything but sometimes he deserves it. 15. What are your biggest fears?
My biggest fear is losing control of myself. I have had a couple of emotional breakdowns and it is the worst feeling in the world and the only thing that i really and truly fear.
16. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
Yes.
17. Have you ever not been able to get someone off of your mind?
Definitely.
18. Do you believe in the saying "once a cheater, always a cheater?"
Depends on the person. Some people learn, others don't.
19. Have you ever had a good feeling about something?
Probably when i started dating my current boyfriend. From the first day i met him, i knew i would end up dating him (and i was right) and that i would like him. 13 months later (as of yesterday) and we are still going strong.
20. Do you ever wish you were famous?
No. I like my life how it is.
21. Are you currently missing someone?
Yes. My boyfriend even though i just left his house a couple of hours ago.
THIS GUY OR THAT GUY? PICK ONE
Cowboy or Gangster?
COWBOY FOR SURE!
Love a REAL man. Preppy or Punk?
Punk.
Face or Body?
Can't choose one! No way!
Good cook or take you out a lot?
Good cook. It's nice to be pampered but i'd get tired of going out very quickly.
Sweet or sexy?
Sweet a bit more but both would be nice.
Armani or Abercrombie?
Comfortable casual so Abercrombie. Armani is just too fancy.
Contacts or glasses?
For me, contacts all the way. I hate glasses. For anyone else, it depends on how they look with or without. I'm not picky.
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Had puppies a while ago! XD
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I know i have been unbearably lazy when it comes to updating but i thought that i should probably update my journal and add a few things.
Had puppies. Our female had three but one of them didn't make it. She is now spayed and will not be having any more. Tinkerbell and Bob are the names the owners have picked out for them. They are fat and sassy at a bit over 5 weeks. Pics to come.
My father got another dog. A pittbull mix named Target. She's so sweet! Loves, absolutely LOVES, car rides. Strong. Cute. Pics to come.
Uh... . . I think that's it for now. Not much else i can think to say. Take care everyone and i hope my watchers haven't all forgotten me!
Had puppies. Our female had three but one of them didn't make it. She is now spayed and will not be having any more. Tinkerbell and Bob are the names the owners have picked out for them. They are fat and sassy at a bit over 5 weeks. Pics to come.
My father got another dog. A pittbull mix named Target. She's so sweet! Loves, absolutely LOVES, car rides. Strong. Cute. Pics to come.
Uh... . . I think that's it for now. Not much else i can think to say. Take care everyone and i hope my watchers haven't all forgotten me!
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I'm having puppies!
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I know i have been in lurk mode and not updating and that sort of thing but i do have to say that I'M HAVING PUPPIES! Or rather the dog that had the puppy before is having another litter. She will be having three this time. We just got the ultrasound done today and the vet said she could have them anytime within the next week so it is all about waiting now. This is going to be awesome to have puppies around again!
Still kinda lurking. Haven't been taking any pictures, writing, or drawing lately so i am kinda useless on here aside from watching. Take care everyone!
BWW
Still kinda lurking. Haven't been taking any pictures, writing, or drawing lately so i am kinda useless on here aside from watching. Take care everyone!
BWW
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